The 66-year-old reality star -whose real name is Duane Chapman – to the stage at the Heritage Christian Center in Aurora where he fought back tears while remembering his wife.
“I cannot believe that she’s gone. This is not possible, I want to wake up from a dream,” Duane shared. “She will never be dead to me. She is in another place. ’m gonna get to heaven and make her so proud. She’s gonna say like she said here, ‘That’s my man right there, that’s big daddy right there.’”
Beth lost her battle with throat cancer in June. She was 51-years-old.
“I walked through the closet the other day and I smell her,” Duane tearfully said. “Then this morning, I could smell her. I said, ‘Is it okay if I keep the closet like that?’ ” he shared, before adding that a loved one had responded: “Until you die, that closet is staying the same.”
“It is one of the worst feelings a man or woman could ever have. I’m telling you,” Duane continued. “I’ve never felt this bad, I’m sad. I didn’t want to do a celebration of life because I’m sad. I miss her so much.”