“I wish I could have been more of a man,” Lamar told People in an interview. “It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
In his new memoir, “Darkness to Light,” Lamar reflects on everything.
“For a while, being with her was bliss and I was the happiest I’ve ever been. We were one of the most famous couples in Hollywood and we made more money together than we had individually,” Lamar wrote. “At the start of our marriage I was faithful to her.”
“I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity,” he continued. “Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression…I couldn’t keep my d— in my pants or the coke out of my nose. Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloé would just drop it.”
He also added, “I hope we can be friends. I miss the family. And I hope we can all be reacquainted one day.”
Khloe and Lamar split back in 2013, and were officially divorced in 2016.